Why was powerlessness my comfort zone? I didn’t feel comfortable when I was in my power. Maybe, because powerlessness has always been there. Since I was a little girl I felt powerless. A feeling of powerlessness has always been present. Fear is what I know. I’ve always known. It has taken over my life. Fear of everything pretty much. I was always bracing, running, comforting myself with food, TV, and friends. Focusing on others and their lives. Trying to control my environment.
Then, almost 10 years ago I felt the most vulnerable I had ever felt. The surge inside of me to take control of my own life came as my whole reality came crashing down. The day I realized I was wrong about so much.
So much avoiding me. Why have I always felt so disconnected from myself and my body? There was a complete disconnect. I decided to start asking myself this question. What do I think? How do I feel in my body?What am I thinking?
I wanted to feel peaceful and confident in myself. I wanted to feel powerful.
I’ll be writing about my journey to find my own power.